10 Things I Love About You:
I love the smell of baby lotion on your cheek
I love the look on your face when you have butterflies in your tummy
I love the way you lovingly caress me when i woke up from slumberland
I love the way you cover my face when i'm shy
I love the way you speak mandarin in your english accent
I love the way you embrace me when i'm in tears
I love the silly look on your face when you realized you said the wrong things
I love the way you fall into my arms when you're feeling all weak n weary
I love the way you call me baby
I love the way you loved me..........
There are alot of things which i could not remember, but there are also alot of things which i could not forget. There was a girl who gave me 100% of her love, her life revolves around me and only me. But i probably gave back a not-so-generous 75%. And that is also the only reasonable reason why i can be easily replaced within a short time span say 2 months n why i'm taking a longer time here. See, I know i'm chatty and sometimes glib, but you know it best there are also alot going on that i chose to keep it in my heart. And even till now, I would still rather you not know that is if it still matters to you. I'm just not good with words in this aspect because i've always believed in loving and caring with actions rather than words.
Words are nothing but alphabets being put together to form a connotation. They disappeared into thin air when spoken out of one's mouth. So how about penning them onto a piece of paper called marriage cerificate? HAHA. You know, i consider myself as an optimist, but it's just ironic why i have such negative vibes about marriage when my parents are still flirting with each other after 25 years of marriage (and counting). I don't believe in FOREVER, to me forever only exists in death. Here's one example. Somebody once told me:"If you ask me, I'd still want to be there for you whenever you need anyone, anyone at all. I'll just listen. This i promise you and you know this much of me is true." I don't see this person around anymore.
Drake is right. People like me need someone who can decipher the meaning of dreams, because in reality i tend to hide my feelings and i choose not to know things that i know. In dreams, i do not have the ability to lie to myself. But one thing i know for sure is that, time really heals EVERYTHING. See, if you love someone very much but that someone was away from you for 8 months and then there's this person who was with you throughout for 6 months, chances are 26 months are wasted. I can't help but to agree with the girl that she's right. I do make a better lover than a girlfriend. No doubt they are pisceans, they even shared the same view.
You know, I will learnt something from every failed relationships n i will try not to commit the same mistakes. This time, i've learnt that career n love cannot progress simultaneously. When you gain some, you will lose some and be prepared there's no room for regrets. If i'm dreaming now, i will dream of becoming a better girlfriend so that i will not hurt anyone no more. And i secretly hope to find a girl whom i will be courageous enough to give her 100% of my love. Here, i sincerely apologise for the pain i've inflicted. I've never meant to hurt you my love.
Our love is like a 4x100 relay race, unfortunately God did not make me the final runner in your race. So from now on, i will watch you by the side and cheer for you when you n your partner reaches the finishing line. If you fall in the midst of running, i will run to the track and pick you up, as your friend :) Now that you're more confident, outspoken and sociable, nothing makes me happier.
Last night at some 2a.m, i recalled you were my only motivation & my soul in that dumb testing company, i recalled Beyonce humming her Scandalous number, i recalled the first date at Spinellis and then it occurs to me that I miss my Lumberfye............
There are alot of things which i could not remember, but there are also alot of things which i will never forget :)
