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dying child
Friday, June 29, 2007
12:17 PM
I heard some talk is going on on monday, i hope you guys can sit down and talk peacefully. And one word of advice is, our group has a problem so solve it within our group. I dun wish to see anyone else at the talk, you understand me alac? And in case you guys decided to fight, pls think of me. Bear in mind, if punches start flying, it also means almost a decade long friendship goes down to drain. And you guys have no right to allow that to happen becos im the one who put in the most effort. We fought against so many idiots n we were not even scared, but now i feel very very scared.. becos i cannot be there to stop things from happening.. i worked 16 hours yesterday but i couldnt sleep last night.

Today is friday, i hope the 4 of you can spend the next 2 days thinking about what we've went thru and what we've been thru for the last 7 - 10 years.. we practically grew up together. Alac, i understand your pain and agony, but mebbe it's not worth it, not worth it at all. I don't know if you understand what im trying to say here, but i do hope you understand.

Do you guys really love me? if you do, why am i feeling a sting in my heart now. It's unbearable. My brainchild is going to die.

tell me what the fuck all of you are doing.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
11:18 AM
Now it has become so complicated. so much so that i've been receiving calls from singapore. And im angry becos prior to this, i've only received partial information which is a hell of difference from what i thought.

I wouldn't say what you guys has done is wrong, but it's nothing honourable after all. Do what you do but at least be more discreet and consider others' feelings. So what now? Hottest topic in town? Laughing stock is the word. Im speechless.

You know, i really don't like it when irritating people laugh at us so i never give them any chances to do that. I fucking hate it. You totally mishandled the whole thing. Start clearing your shit now, if not i think you'll get drown in it.

Kaew, were you sleeping when things happened? Or were you on drugs too?

Let's Stand Up
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
12:10 PM
To all my friends, i really really wish i can be there to shield all of you from the sufferings of pain and to wipe off those tears with my hands.. I want to let all of you know that i love you guys very much.. I am working very hard here towards my goals and our goals, you guys are my strength and emotional support. althought i couldn't be there physically, but i hope i can give you strength to move on spiritually, be that piilar for you guys to hold on to whenever you're falling.

Kaew, pls do not blame yourself for not being able to join me here becos i shld thank you for giving me this opportunity. Im just disappointed that we couldnt do something together. But that doesn't mean that you should feel glad, you shld pick yourself up and find your direction and do what you shld do now. And when you're ready, you are suppose to pick me up from dubai you understand? Just know that i will support you in whatever you have decided to do becos i have overflowing faith and confidence in you. And don't take too long to come pick me huh.

Alac, i know you're going through a rough patch now and im sorry i couldnt be there for you. But there's something i want you to know and hope you will understand, along the way i've realized that letting go is the easiest way out for myself and i believed it will work for you becos we've been in some same shit quite afew times. Sometimes it's not about whether you are good enough or not but it just doesn't click. So find one that clicks. And your career, i think by now you've understand clearly that there's no shortcut but its okay, you just need to keep on trying till you find one that suits you, just don't give up easily. And your health, you know im gonna fuck you upside down for this. If you want to continue being stubborn and not love yourself then i don't see why i shld love you. Stop thinking that you're in a sorry state becos if you keeping thinking abt that then you will forever be in a sorry state. I want you to stop hiding in the corner and walk out you understand? Walk out and i promised you will see all of us.

Baobao, there's something i want to admit. I've never really like the idea of you being with tingting. But i accepted her becos i know you love her quite a fair bit. Although i don't exactly know what happened between you and her, but i know you must be crying inside your heart now. But pls don't cry, becos when you cry you make awful noise which i cannot stand. I seriously prefer you to be a playboy, easier to settle. Whoever you are dating now and whatever you want to do now, go ahead. But i just want to tell you, mai zho lim pei xia suay. you know how much i want face, i will kill you if you xia suay lim pei. I don't quite understand sometimes, you're forever giving me the most stupid problems but i will still clear your shit.. You are like a baby brother who i will go chasing around with a cane. I love you and pls be happy.

Drake, as much as i don't wish to admit but you really do quite understand me, maybe becos we are suffering from the same 'illness'. I guess you had a hard time trying to keep everyone together becos it's very very difficult i know but i know you've tried your best. Actually im very tired of being a DM but nobody wants to take over nabeis. Im very happy for you embarking on a new job and taking on a new challenge, pls don't be afraid becos i know you can do it. You shld know i don't say words which i don't mean or words that im not confident in.

Boys, we have come a long way together. good times and bad times. we quarrel, we fight but we love and we care. i hope for more good times ahead and pls remember: BCC don't fall easily. I hope you guys will be strong enough to get back on your feet. When we meet in march, i will give each of you a big hug. I want us to be above the others, i want them to be under our feet. I hope im not fighting the battle alone.

P.S:
Pauminah, i don't know since when you have sneaked up so close to my heart. Pls tell that gemma/amy to hide in some holes when i go back, if not they're going to kena jialat from me. Hit my friends? i think they don't know 'si zi zhe me xie' ! knnbccb. I will go back and sayang you okay?

SCL, i love you. (you know i cannot say too much here)

Huangxuelian, i will be waiting for your email. pen only when u feel like it. starting is always difficult but if you don't start then you will never reach where you wanna go.

Ly, surprise that you've a share too? heehee, if one day you've decided not to find a husband then remember to tattoo my name on your butt. I just wanna tell you that whenever you're down you can complain and rant to me with all the vulgarities, and you must treasure it becos that will be the only time where i won't laugh and make fun of you :) say hello panda!

Zzzzzzzzz
Sunday, June 10, 2007
9:43 PM
I need a break. Badly.

Past 2 weeks was hell for me, my warehouse is like a battlefield, everyday i go to work at 9am and knocked off at 9pm,10pm or 2am. I will not go into details but reason for the hardcore work schedule mainly becos my warehouse-in-charge screwed up and the managers were too busy to realize that the warehouse is screwed. So, altogether they screwed me. Thankyouverymuch :)

Basically we need to revamp the arrangement and system of the warehouse, so i hafta proposed an action plan and execute it. And the managers being FOREVER busy, they put me in charge of this shit and tats why i hafta either stand under the hot sun or stay in the sibei 'hip' (hokkien) warehouse to supervise and give directions to 4 Indians, 3 Filippinos and 8 pakistinis everyday. And thats the most difficult part, sometimes they really irritate the shit outta me. The entire plan have to be carried out, completed and due for inspection tomorrow. Which is the reason why at 10pm im still sitting infront of the dumb computer and typing this entry. If we don't pass the inspection, i think i can pack my bags and see you guys earlier :)

I think i will have some friends secretly praying that we don't pass the inpection hahaha. Anyway huh, i tell u huh, i don't care i assumed im part of the supercult.